7th May ✨ It was exactly a year ago today I found out that my whole world was going to change. Motherhood was something I didn't even know that I wanted. I just knew it was meant for me and I welcomed it into my life. And I'm so glad I did. Yes it's one of the hardest things I've ever experienced, but my gosh, the love that this little human has brought into my life is nothing I could have ever imagined feeling. I am so blessed I was chosen to be his mama bear 🐻 #pregnancy #thenvsnow #firsttimemom
I truly didn’t anticipate how mentally demanding motherhood would be. It's challenged me in ways I wasn’t prepared for. And admitting that I’m struggling isn’t easy. I think many mums would relate to how hard it is to say those words out loud. I feel incredibly blessed to have Björn in my life. The love I have for him is overwhelming, and watching him grow brings me so much joy. That’s what makes the struggle feel even heavier - there’s guilt in finding this hard when I know how lucky I am, and especially when I know others may be facing even more difficult circumstances. But the truth is, every experience is relative, and right now, I am finding it hard. I know I’m not alone in feeling this way, even though at times it does feel lonely. Struggling while the world outside seems to keep moving forward. I try to remind myself that these feelings are temporary and to be present & cherish every precious moment with Björn as I know how quickly time passes. All I know is that I'm doing my best as a new mum, and that's all that matters. This journey has shown me just how deeply selfless I can be. No matter how I’m feeling inside, I keep getting up, taking a breath, and moving forward for Björn. Motherhood is really showing me that true strength isn’t about always feeling okay and having it altogether. It’s in the quiet moments when I choose to keep going even though I'm exhausted, overwhelmed or filled with doubt. It’s in the way I show up for Björn, even when I feel like I have nothing left to give. It's in the deep breaths, the late night cuddles, the tears wiped away in silence. Being strong doesn’t mean never struggling. It means continuing to love, give and show up, even when it’s hard. Mums, I see you ❤️ And I am sending so much love and light to each and every one of you
Brb just crying 😭 I can't believe it's been a year since my solo trip to LA where I felt this deep sense of clarity that I was to become a mum. I couldn't explain it, but I just 'knew' it was in my path. I didn't know when it was going to happen, but I could visualise and feel it. Fast forward to today and here I am being a mum to my baby bear 🐻 It's crazy how much your life can change in a year! Usually right now I'd be planning my Coachella festival outfits and packing my suitcase ready to head to LA. Instead I'm changing nappies, having snuggles with my baby and playing with them everyday. I'm not gonna lie, I'm definitely getting fomo from missing my first festival of the year that I usually attend. However I'm so grateful for this new journey I'm on and I know I'll be getting festival'd up again at some point in the future. #reflection #HealingJourney #firsttimemum